whoa...it's 2012

the new year really came at me fast. maybe it's because i was in whistler when it happened, and then when i got home it was already "next year".  i finally started packing this week.....and man, it's hard! not just packing stuff i want to bring with me to new york, but packing up and cleaning out my entire life that's been stored up in my bedroom the past 20+ years. everything single thing i dig up goes through this loopy mental flowchart of:

should i bring this with me to new york .... do i want to store it .... should i see if anyone else wants it .... should i donate it .... but wait, should i try to sell it .... should i just throw it away .... oh gosh, i can't possibly throw it away!.... ok, fine i'll just throw it away ....

and now my room is a complete mess because sometimes things get stuck in the middle of this thought process, ending up on the floor in no particular pile at all. it's a disaster. why is it i feel the need to keep every single tooth i've ever lost (although i think everyone keeps their old teeth), every wallet and bag i've ever used, every card i've ever received? maybe it's because i have the worst memory in the world so i feel like if i throw it away, the memory will be gone forever. but life is about keeping old memories as well as making new ones, so hopefully there will be many new memories made this year that will be shared with you on this blog! good thing blogging doesn't take up much space...

so yes, i'm "packing".... if that picture above counts as packing, haha. don't ask me why, out of all things, i feel the need to bring a box of string to new york. am i really going to wrap up my assignments in baker's twine before i turn them in? uh, probably not. and it's definitely something that i can just buy over there for a few dollars if i ever needed it. but for some crazy reason (or i'm just mental) i feel the need to bring it with me.

so to prevent myself from having to go through this dilemma again in the near future, i thoroughly resolve to never buy anything again unless 1) i absolutely need it and 2) i actually have use for it in the immediate future. well, this might be a little hard to discern in the area of apparel, mostly because clothing + accessories almost always satisfy these two requirements. =) but at least it'll apply to things like cute stationery and other beautiful home/office goods that i'm so attracted to. especially since i've decided to just stay in student housing for this first spring semester (which is most likely a shared triple in the financial district) which also means that i will also have to limit myself to bringing two huge suitcases instead of four....is that even possible?! i guess i should go back to packing now.

here's a little reminder for myself: “do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth...but store up for yourselves treasures in heaven... for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also." matthew 6:19-21